Why?
Why?
Its a question I ask myself constantly, Why do I want to dress as Lottie? The truth is a confusing spectrum of thoughts and responses.
Lottie isn't a fetish, nor a fantasy. Lottie for me is a happy zone which I can escape to.
When describing Lottie I think of her as a character. I guess it is similar to the process an actor uses to prepares a character for a TV programme. I love being able to transform into something completely different which allows me to explore the world from a slightly different perspective and mindset.
My very first moments as Lottie happened only recently in late January 2017. That experience of transformation was an eye opening experience and one which has made me a better individual.
Beyond that point I had very little knowledge or experience and in honesty, had rather a judgemental view of myself. Lottie was an individual I didn't fully understand and therefore was something which I believed was wrong. I guess you could say that I expected better of myself. I expected myself to be perfect and Lottie was the thing preventing me from being perfect.
Lottie isn't a fetish, nor a fantasy. Lottie for me is a happy zone which I can escape to.
When describing Lottie I think of her as a character. I guess it is similar to the process an actor uses to prepares a character for a TV programme. I love being able to transform into something completely different which allows me to explore the world from a slightly different perspective and mindset.
My very first moments as Lottie happened only recently in late January 2017. That experience of transformation was an eye opening experience and one which has made me a better individual.
Beyond that point I had very little knowledge or experience and in honesty, had rather a judgemental view of myself. Lottie was an individual I didn't fully understand and therefore was something which I believed was wrong. I guess you could say that I expected better of myself. I expected myself to be perfect and Lottie was the thing preventing me from being perfect.
Being judgmental towards myself is a running theme throughout my story.
So why do you want to dress as Lottie?
Lottie has changed my whole outlook on life!
They say life is like a roller-coaster and these past few months have been like that for me! I've experienced a lot of negative events that have happened within a short space of time. A mixture of a huge workload, long working hours, daily abuse in the workplace, commitments to music, long travelling times, family breakups mixed with daily situations and emotions.
Emotions can be unpredictable and due to the nature of my work and experiences of my work mixed together with on going situations I found myself in rather a strange place, mentally.
To cut it short Lottie dressing as Lottie changed my mindset. My head-space became clearer and allowed me to focus on being happy. I don't think anything can beat that moment of looking in the mirror and seeing yourself smile.
Lottie has opened my world, made me a better individual and most of all made me happy.
My friend always said to me that you should focus on the things that make you happy and not on trying to please others around you.
Future Plans.....
I guess I am still pretty new to this world and there is still lots to discover. My hopes for the future would be that I accept myself and become truly happy with the Lottie part of me.
In the future I want to show my natural side instead of what currently could be described as a 'Fetish' look. I want to promote and celebrate the differences and similarities in which we discover ourselves.
I want to promote the rights for all individuals to be able to explore who they are without the fears and judgements that I have experienced. I want to be able to inspire people who are in similar situations to have the courage to explore.
Life is a learning process and when we enter it with an open heart then we only gain.
So why do you want to dress as Lottie?
Lottie has changed my whole outlook on life!
They say life is like a roller-coaster and these past few months have been like that for me! I've experienced a lot of negative events that have happened within a short space of time. A mixture of a huge workload, long working hours, daily abuse in the workplace, commitments to music, long travelling times, family breakups mixed with daily situations and emotions.
Emotions can be unpredictable and due to the nature of my work and experiences of my work mixed together with on going situations I found myself in rather a strange place, mentally.
To cut it short Lottie dressing as Lottie changed my mindset. My head-space became clearer and allowed me to focus on being happy. I don't think anything can beat that moment of looking in the mirror and seeing yourself smile.
Lottie has opened my world, made me a better individual and most of all made me happy.
My friend always said to me that you should focus on the things that make you happy and not on trying to please others around you.
Future Plans.....
I guess I am still pretty new to this world and there is still lots to discover. My hopes for the future would be that I accept myself and become truly happy with the Lottie part of me.
In the future I want to show my natural side instead of what currently could be described as a 'Fetish' look. I want to promote and celebrate the differences and similarities in which we discover ourselves.
I want to promote the rights for all individuals to be able to explore who they are without the fears and judgements that I have experienced. I want to be able to inspire people who are in similar situations to have the courage to explore.
Life is a learning process and when we enter it with an open heart then we only gain.
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